The body carried it first.

From the outside, my life looked intact, right down to a face convincing enough that even I believed it. Underneath, my body carried what survival had sealed away.

In my early thirties, during a Saturday morning meditation, the seal broke. Violence I survived at sixteen and a second assault in my twenties returned without warning as present-tense terror. The life that looked functional had grown around what survival kept outside awareness.

I trained in somatic therapy and spent years studying trauma neuroscience and consciousness research, trying to understand one experience through different languages. Tom Campbell’s My Big TOE gave the inquiry its frame and its central question: what happens to awareness when fear takes command?

Edge to Path grew from that question. It follows overwhelming experience past the point where thought can keep up, and asks what allows awareness to remain or return while staying in contact with the body.

I wrote it for readers who have understood their history intellectually and still found their bodies living somewhere else.

The divide between what the mind knows and what the body still obeys is where this book begins.